*~bEsT fRiiEnDz 4 eVeR aNd 4 AlWaYz~*
MaNdY&MaRyKaTe!
NiCoLe&PaRiiS
            
Thiis iis from my babe Mandy! WOw do ii love her!!! and iim glad to have her as a friiend!!!
Standing by,
All the way,
Here to help you through your day,
Holding you up,
When you are weak,
Helping you find what it is you seek.
Catching your tears,
When you cry,
Pulling you through when the tide is high,
Just being there,
Through thick and thin,
All just to say, you are my friend!!!
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Tuesday, May 03, 2005
all good thiings end eventually..x
wiith long consiideratiion...ii've deciided to end my blogdriive..so many thiings happen w/ thiis ii wiill update on some of the "exciitiing" thiings that happen iin my liife but other wiise iim moviing on...ii now have a myspace and iits 10x's better 4 me....you can check iit out...
http://www.myspace.com/9267782
so0o untiil somethiing better comez along thiis iis the last blog 4 a whiile........but all good thiings have to end eventually....x
<3 aLwAyZ
*PaRiiS*
Posted at 07:59 pm by beautynbrains
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Tuesday, April 12, 2005
dont u wish u knew everything? wat others were thinking? wow i bet everyone has...and yea idk i wish i could kno just a few things...like my title unaswered questions...wow if only i knew the things i was wondering....thought i was TOTALLY over bryan now im questioning it! NO NO im not!!! i lvoe him...yes as my best friend! i lvoe lvoe love it! wow we're great budz...but many times have i wondered...in the future will it be different will i find some1 new to love and care 4??? wishing day and night that i would...yet "that guy" hasent cum yet...but yea..i wrote this a while ago and it took me a while to write and everytime i start to feel a certain way i just put things down..soo if u ever think about doing something crazy b/c i have..u just have to find a new way to 2 it....talk to one of ur best friendz they care...or just right it all done and who know maybe urz could turn out @ good as mine...lol haha! jk here it iz....
Something that “YOU” could have been
It's hard, to believe
We weren't meant to be
But all good things end eventually
Yet here I am, walking away
And you’re not asking me to stay
I use to think I couldn't live without us together
I’d always see me in your arms forever
Now everything has changed
Because you chose her over me
And it’s just so hard to believe
I know one day you'll see me walking down the street,
Looking all confident and complete.
Thinking to yourself if u made a mistake
Or if you really did throw it all away
I'll wave and blow you a kiss,
And say it's cool running into you like this.
I’ll ask if you ever look back, wishing you could turn, back time
If you have one more chance would have me change my mind
We’ll talk yet I’ll be thinking the same
But knowing that it has to be this way
I'll say boy look at me now
I have my whole life and all my dreams with me
Now you’ll just have to see all this misery you chose for me
When we could have just talked or worked it all out
Instead you said it your way and that was without a doubt
Now I’m glad and I’m smiling with a grin from cheek to cheek
Because I’ve found someone new whom can I can seek
You could have been right could have been free
Could have been my everything
But now you’re not and all you got is something
That could have been
............just think about it........if u really "are" thinking something...dont waste ur time wishing or praying itz a certain way and just let it out u only have a short life to live soo live it to your fullest!!!.......
Posted at 07:09 pm by beautynbrains
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Monday, April 11, 2005
everythiing happenz 4 a reason....riight??
would u ever believe that things alwayz happend 4 a reason...like everyone alwayz says...well until it happens to you then i dont think that you'll ever have the chance to relieze it...but now that everything thatz happend the past few days ive soon to relieze everything....bryan wow ive decided to move on and yea even though all the things that have happend yea...newayz...ok i went to the play on friday and yea it turned out pretty good...but straight after went to rachiiez party and it was fun..but yea @ the play griffen came and he brought his friend les...and yea soo i talked to kylie last night and she was like OMGsh mary...les thought that u were really hott and he wants to meet u....so yea imediatly ur kinda like umm...ooookkkk...but yea ive heard about him b4 and there was this guy w/ blonde hair w/ griffen and from a far he looked hott soo yea..but kylie has all this planned 4 next weekend 4 us all 2 do...lol funny!~ hehe...who knowz wat will really happen....and now i feel like everything w/ bryan is cleared up and itz funny how all these things turn out..when everyhing w/ bryan ...yea im finally settled w/ one things and now les is here..soo lol idk im confunsiing myself..lol haha bryan is the grtest and i love him to death..muah...lol but im tyring to get over and move on cuz he done w/ everything...soo smilez..**BA-BY MA-MA this goes out to my baby mama...this goes out to my baby mama...BA-BY MA-MA this goes out to my baby mama...i've got love 4 my baby mama...xdedicatedx...~guess who~?!?!
guess into my kisses...lol comments...click blow me a kiss and guess...muahaha!!!!
luv alwayz~!
**Me**
Posted at 04:55 pm by beautynbrains
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Wednesday, April 06, 2005
The Liife I've Always Longed For*~
****what would you call the perfect life? rich? poor? hott guy or girl? see this hole yr ive thought the perfect life would be to be w/ bryan and,to have tonz of friends,grades and everything all 2gether...when yet i had the perfect life right in front of me i dont need tonz of friendz and wat i thought the "perfect" boyfriend was all i needed were "true" friendz and ppl that cared about me and all along i've had that....and rachael mathis,mandy degraff and many others have helped me figure all this out....bryan wow we've had our ups and downs and now im so glad that ive finally relize the wonderful guy ever...my best friend...my brother..not boyfriend....wow im feeling soo much better and im starting to have the "8th grade" yr...type thing im really starting to enjoy myself...rachael mathis and mandy degraff are my 2 best friendz ever...and thank you for everything yall have ever done 4 me and i lvoe yall 2 death!!! and wow all u have to do to have the "perfect" life is for you to live you life @ the fullest and appreciate everything and to take the good w/ the bad..and to smile the hole way!~****
<3
PaRiiS!!~**
Posted at 08:31 pm by beautynbrains
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Monday, April 04, 2005
there's a spot missing in my heart and itz longing my best friend.*.*
yes ive got many friends...but do u have the one friend that u totally click w/ and will alwayz love and u kno they will never to anything to harm u?well this is how i feel about nicole a.k.a mandy! i love her more than any1 could kno..she was ALWAYZ there and was alwayz willing to be there 4 me no matter wat!!! bryan wow did that boy put me thro alot of shit and who was there 4 me mandy and when things got rough w/ our families who was there 4 each other...US!!! i love her soo much!!!! we have soo mcuh in common and alwayz will but idk right now i fell like im loosing one of my best friends.i still lovr and totally appreciate all my other friends itz just..... i havent gotten to talk to her in 4ever...like really talk...therez so much i need to tell her..but we didnt make cheerleading 2gether which makies me even more pissed off...b/c the suckest ppl made it over me....ill always lvoe her and shell be one of the closest things to a REAL sister...lol well ive gotta go somewhere w/ dad...so peace!!!!
I LOVE YOU NICOLE!!!!
Posted at 06:33 pm by beautynbrains
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Tuesday, March 29, 2005
upcoming dayz....heaven or HELL!?!?!?
well ive been doing grt..had tha best 1st day back yesterday...WOW did i miss everyone..i was back 2 normal i was the happy go lucky girl!!! and it felt soo goood....everything w/ him im so0o0o OVER!!! no not everythingz gone but a good shit load is...newayz yesertday,today,tomorrow,and friday i have all ihs cheerleading...the clinics then friday w/ the tryouts....soo yes...excited then totally SCARED @ the same time...dont thinik ill make anything just b-c of the girls upper girls im against there perfect and so0o0o good...but then some of the girls arent as good as i thought idk they were perfect but truley they werent but w/e! lil miss mandy wasent @ school 2day! wow did i miss her...then she was at cheer and did awsome and she was sick but still did grt!...2morrow im ride w/ katie..and im gonna get rachie to ride w/ me 2.... i love katie shes just a sweetheart....but yea not much has been going on..all im worrying about is high school...how will it be? wat will it be like? will i like it or will i not? u never kno....? answering my question heaven or hell????
<3
PaRiiS!~
Posted at 10:38 pm by beautynbrains
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Sunday, March 27, 2005
when ii say iitz over then iitz over
i kno everyone is sooo bored w/ me talkin bout bryan and the truth is i am too but idk i just cant stop....but after all this stuff i hear about him w/ wat hez doing w/ these girls..and one of my friends...but then hez like well i still love a certain person....bull shitz! u dont do the things u've done if u still like this person! idk i still like him more than anyone will ever kno...and hez been a grt guy when we;re together but i have to move on and smile....and i think itz time to call itz quits! b/c after all this he'z liked and not liked ppl and then said he has...but.....i've gotta move on..and itz just something that i have to decide for myself...no matter wat he does and wat other ppl say u have to learn and decide and choose for yourself..and now i think this is my time that i've accomplished ive had soo much pain and ive suffered sooo much! and i never knew why but bc of one person ive felt soo depressed..and now idk i have to call it quits i'll alwayz be his best friend...and i think thatz the way it has to be..maybe one day some day and somehow itz will all happen...b/c wat goes around comes around thatz wat ppl say soo all the pain he'z caused me will cum back to him someday......
.:.::.:.:.:.:.::.:.:.:.:.:*?_to_be_continued_ ~ At LeAsT ii HoPe So*:.:.:.:.:.::.:.:.:.:.::.:.:
<3 PaRiiS!~
Posted at 08:57 pm by beautynbrains
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Saturday, March 26, 2005
"friiendshiipz" the diiference between the "TRUE" and the "fAkE"
wow just got back from the trip and wow idk im just glad to be home wishing i could have gotten tanner..but ohh well thatz wat the tanning beds for right? lol but yea...ok...on the way home we stopped by gulf shores and it was fun...got my finishing touches on the tan then left...everyone that knowz me knowz i like hooters..lol idk dont ask y and no im not a LEZBIAN! lol ive just alwayz wanted one of their shirts...so i was like ok im getting one 4 me devii mandy and rach...and i was all excited and happy but we went there and itz TORN down..lol tha hurricane took it out..w/e! who knows...
but to explain my title i had to start w/ my trip b/c it was on this trip i relized the truth behind it all..i had alot of time that i could sit and think about all of it...heartache..backstabbers...and the good ones...and idk why do girls have to be such bitches MY GOD!!! guys dont fight like us....but herez the true definition of ..TRUE...and...fAkE
TRUE~Faithful, as to a friend, vow, or cause; loyal.
fAkE~Having a false or misleading appearance; fraudulent.
to me wow these explain everyting...and yea i DO have alot of fake friends..but the friendz that i want arent fake i want these kindz of friends..ones who..dont lie...dont cheat...arent misleading...thats b/c their true..and if they have any weird or missjudgeing appearence once soo ever then their not true...just trust me..!!!
MY FRIENDS!!! are the ones that are there to catch me if i fall they'll help me through the rough times w/ guys..and they will be there 4 you no matter what..but when or if any of them act this horrible way towards me then theyve been unmasked meaning they havent been true from the start...your friendz dont say one thing yet do another...and when your somewhere else they dont flirt and hangout w/ one of the guys you;ve liked 4ever...
**QUESTION**
to all my friendz out their...if u knew how much i liked a guys would u flirt and hangout w/ them and thro yourselves @ them..while i was gone???
Would "U" cause me that pain???
and the biggest question of them all would be how? and why?
If your one of friendz then you would have ben there for me seeing how horrible i was and how much paiin these ppl were casuing me but why? would u want to be the new person causing me that pain?
IF so then i;ve been wrong about u all along and your not true no matter wat u say!!!!
I think this is one of my best entrys yet soo ill just leave it @ this...
"Ex-boyfriends are off limits to friends...i mean that's just the rules of feminism!!!!"
AS WELL AS THIS ONE....
"It's just something that happens as you grow up..you realize it's less important to have more friends and it's more important to have real ones"
<3 ya!
<3 PaRiiS!!!!
p.s. we have exactly..
2months and 6dayz left entil we leave this school
Idk bout you but ive been here since 6th grade!!! and wow how i lost alot but gained soo much...learning the true friendz and yes i plan one keeping them!!!!
I LOVE YOU!!!!!!
Posted at 02:14 pm by beautynbrains
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Thursday, March 24, 2005
wow!!! this has been a long and fast break @ the same time...but ill tell u one thing im ready to come home...and yea...got tann-er! more tan than i was lol...when i get home ill get tanner got some cute clothes..and had a fun time @ the same time...the thing thatz wrong...is the way that itz all happend...u feel like ur having a great time but then @ the same time....u hear about all the things that are going on while ur gone....like everything...w/ everyone...ppl that seem to be your friendz..are doing this that well not that u dont approve of..but then they are ur friends..but friendz dont promise that they'll never do something then do it...right? and they dont take the ppl u really like do they?.....idk things are soo complicated in this place called life....and this is the time that we should nah that i WILL be finding out who my true friendz are!!!!....i love all of u and u kno who u are!!!!!!! kisses!!!!
<3 PaRiiS!
LOVE U NIKKI!!!!!
Posted at 09:42 pm by beautynbrains
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Sunday, March 20, 2005
fun fun fun!!! wow!!! yeserday i just took a really long trip!!! yes i had to driv..but right now im @ my relatives house..and it was a 10 hr drive!!! LONG!! but lol it felt like no time @ all!!! i sleep the HOLE time!!! would wake up then go back to sleep wake up sleep! lol fun way to spend my trip...
but newayz...im here and we're having fun just went shopping 2day and it was awsome got alot of new tops...and i got a new bathing suit b4 i left and itz hott!!! pink and purple and yellow! soo cute! while i was shopping i got a present for annie, katie, mandy, devon, and rachael! i hope they like them because i think their totally cute! but yea..
ok 2morrow i think we're going to the beach i think in destin 1st then we're traveling to the keys!!! key west baby!!! lol i cant wait!!! im gonna be sooo tan!!! no more fake stuff...lol jk but yea!!! GORGEOUS!!!i miss everyone!....i cant wait to cum home!!! wait i love it here well i wish u were all here!! lol thatz better!
LUV ALWAYZ!!!!
<3 PaRiiS!!!
Posted at 09:48 pm by beautynbrains
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